I started to feel unsafe writing on Rabbit Reverie and then it dawned on me that things aren't working out with my date :(

There's a chance he might be reading this still and is gonna dislike me for being me. Weak, fragile, and whatever.

I am trying my best, but I guess it wasn't good enough still. I'm sorry for being so insufferable :pray:

I'm going to die alone, aren't I? :cry:

I wonder if I'll ever be happy :((( I'm really trying to not depend on others in order to be happy, I've received feedback I need to work on myself.

I'm trying, I promise.

I was working on making a new headdress. A beige one with pink roses on the side to go with classic lolita dresses.

Unfortunately, I did not practice safe sewing and injured myself with a needle.

A trip to Daiso was in order. Luckily it's only 5 minutes away. I got the cat shaped ones to protect my precious fingers ^^

I later finished the headdress at night!

And here's how I coordinated it...

Close up!

I went to a Buy Nothing event. And these were my gets (hat excluded). Is Normie Michelle weird?

˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞. Park Ji Yoon - Sky Blue Dream ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞.

Strange hearing her sing live.. I think that wasn't common with old Kpop. I really liked her, I don't think she was very popular in the West. This another song from 1998.

really struggling mentally now~~

I went to Carmel over the 3 day weekend. Scarlett and I picked up a friend in Gilroy.

Kitkat doesn't know how to take pictures, I guess. Or he is admiring the Gilroy real estate and dreams of living there one day.

I'm wearing Mary Magdalene's Angelica OP in mint and a cardigan in pink (the name escapes me). Also wearing a Saint Claire headdress replica made by Apple in mint.

I'm feeling very sad again lately and unseen.

I feel so unloveable.

Have some pictures from my trip, I guess. I would like to write more, but I think I would just write about what a terrible person I am.

Some photos were from my digital camera. Can you tell which? ^^

˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞. Fin.K.L - To My Boyfriend 내 남자 친구에게˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞.

I miss old Kpop, maybe I should learn the dance to this lololol. I like how the beginning is like the old sticker picture machines ^^ they also up'ed the saturation of the video so intensely that they lost the noses! This song is from 1998, I heard it around the time it came out ^^ This is the stupid shit I grew up on..but I really miss those times.