A Long Time Coming


So I actually went out today. It had been a very long time for me since I had afternoon tea (or even went out to eat). I felt such a sense of relief to have some normalcy. I didn't realize my local afternoon tea place was open on Friday's so I'm going to try to support them when I can.

I also obtained these shoes by Fluevog! They are called Caravaggio. I had eyeing them for a very, very long time. I also got them in burgundy which was my dream color. I was really happy with how it turned out with my outfit. I decided to look especially nice today since I wasn't sure when I could go out again.

The dress I was wearing was also a dream dress of mine and it is still one of my favorite pieces. I'm not sure what it is about Mary Magdalene and their florals, but I just swoon over them. Mint is also one of my favorite lolita colors. The cut of this dress also fits me very well so I have this dress in burgundy and lavender too. I don't think I'm the kind to own more than one colorway of a dress, but this one is an exception. The first colorway I got of this dress was burgundy. A girl in my local community was selling it and I met her over boba to make the purchase.

The jacket was also another highly coveted item for me. I really love the dusty pink color and also how it fits me very well. The details are subtle, but very pretty. I was lucky enough to have a friend sell this to me when she knew I wanted it badly. I haven't seen this sold secondhand once yet so I'm very thankful. Needless to say, this is a dream coordinate I'm so happy to wear.

JSK, Jacket: Mary Magdalene - Rose Basket
Blouse: Victorian Maiden
Socks: Innocent World
Purse: Fint
Shoes: Fluevog - Caravaggio

p.s. I’m extremely triggered by how badly I tied my bow.. sorry. This is what happens when you’re in a rush so you don’t take too long of a lunch break.

Why I Wear Lolita


I wore this coordinate to the zoo when California wasn't on complete lock down. It's been really rough, probably less so for me because I have a toddler so I don't have a lot of freedom anyways. I used to wear lolita every weekend. It didn't matter where I was going - I could be just going to do groceries. I just liked wearing it and I didn't care how people reacted. I remember reading somwhere that someone felt wearing lolita was like wearing armor. I'm not sure if that's the case for me, but it is definitely the 1-2 days a week that I feel like I am truly me. Every other day of the week, I wear practical (generally Jfashion still) clothes, but they feel like a substitute for the sake of time and fitting in. On these "practical" days, I'm always yearning until the day I can wear lolita again. I daydream about about the coordinate I will wear and perfect it until that day.

I'm not sure if I'm particularly proud of this coordinate. It was from a time when I was feeling less passionate about lolita. I was having a hard time enjoying lolita while managing work and family life. Since then, I've been looking for alternative ways to enjoy lolita when I don't wear it often. This blog is helping a lot with that and working on my wardrobe has helped too.

Victorian Maiden - Stripe Rose Ruffle OP

OP: Victorian Maiden - Stripe Rose Ruffle OP
Bonnet: Kaneko
Socks: Innocent World