Welp, knowing my shitty luck.. we knew I'd be back..

I am no longer with my boyfriend.

It's not healthy, but I find it very difficult to be single.. I just need to feel chosen, need to feel I can share something with someone all day long ><

I need a man to handle my shitty status updates all day long lollll~ like oh I'm drinking tea now. oh I went to the museum! oh I'm eating a sammich now

holy cow do I sound so unbearable..

This bf... he used to read my blog and one time I posted something very distressing and he was the only person that noticed and consoled me. It meant a lot to me. I don't think he reads this anymore ;_; I truly love him though ;_; and don't think I can forget him :(

The good news is a lot has changed in the positive direction in my life on the whole... I finally started my egl brand this year. It's very small, but I've been doing in person markets! I'll be starting an online shop soon. So please stay tuned!

I'm very proud to have gotten into some higher caliber events in such a short time too. I really hope my brand can deliver cute things for you ><

We used to have home pages.. and webpages all about us. Somehow we traded it for endless scrolling and instantaneously likes.

Does anyone miss the lost art of blogging?

Somehow I feel like lolita and blogging go hand in hand. There are so many activities you do as a lolita such as tea time - enjoying simple sandwiches and pouring tea for yourself, it's not a practical meal you have quickly. It's a meal you take time with and you think and absorb what's going on around you.

And blogging is a slowed down activity too. You take time to think about what you want to say and prepare accompanying pictures. You can make a long statement for people to really get your message. You don't just post pictures and get likes right away.

I miss when you just shared content you liked... not for likes or clout, but just because.

Hm, I forgot to announce that I'm in my sweet lolita era now! Here's a picture of me in Angelic Pretty's Wonder Party. It's sooo cute ><

˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞. Hinoi Team - Aishiteru ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞.

Got back into Eurobeat idols again :sweat: Some melancholy feeling to this song... fitting cos it's called "I love you" and I just broke up lol.

p.s. I am honestly really struggling with this break up :((((

I am kinda of at a lost about what to post about lately :sweatsmile: I've been in such a healthy mental space, I'm like, "wow there is no turmoil i could post about." lol. Sorry I have been treating this blog like a vent. >____<;;; I've had a lot of feelings I needed to process over the last year. And hopefully I can I stay in this healthy space!

Honestly, it's weird because I feel like I could post a lot more helpful content now like tutorials (maybe lol). Would you like to see any?

Here's a coordinate from the other day when I had tea with a friend. We also went antiquing afterwards!

My antiquing haul! I was so happy about the teddy bear~ He looks soooo cute, I need to think of a name for him!

The rest of the finds were vintage materials I can use for making items for rabbit reverie, my brand!

I feel happy I can meet this friend so casually. She lives far, but she made the trek to see me ^_^

In other news, I started crafting flowers again! I plan on making these to sell for rabbit reverie.

Here's how it looks cutting out the petals.

I have to individually shape and iron each petal. I put them together in this box to keep organized ^_^

Here's how it looks after it's complete! Right is my flower and left is factory made (it's a little smashed). Which do you like more? It's ok if you don't like mine LOL.

It took me quite a few hours to make this batch.

I ended up making this hair bow with one of my completed flowers ^_^

Here are also some jabots I made! I only used premade flowers here.

I'll probably produce a mix of products with handmade or premade flowers. It's very labor intensive creating the flowers so I will refrain from using them exclusively as I'm afraid of burn out. I don't think most people will pay premium for them so I don't really wanna slave away for it if that makes sense ><

Here's also a batch of hair bows I made which I will be selling!

˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞. Malice Mizer - Shiroi Hada ni Kuruu Ai to kanashimi no Rondo ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞.

I'm a lifestyle lolita that listens to Malice Mizer (visual kei band in which one of the members has their own lolita brand too)??? I truly love lolita though and did see their live concert before! (one of the anniversary ones)