I wore Terence Rose to Ursa Major recently.

My goal was to match this stock photo!

I wish I wasn't lame and actually got some good pics...

Also I got to wear my Genoise coat in mint! It's my favorite. I love the color so much. I kept passing on this coat because of how impractical the sleeves are, but idc now, they're extra, it's still great

Thanks for the staff for putting together another great Ursa Major.

˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞. Arianne - KOMM, SUSSER TOD˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞.

This song is so relatable sometimes, cry cry.

I feel a lot more happy these days though and it's enabled me to so much more productive! It just feels like I have a proper footing in my life and people care, therefore the stuff I do actually matters and my existence isn't futile. I feel really happy and and joyful in my life now..

My bf kept talking to me about old anime the other day and chobits came up. And now I want to cosplay at the local anime convention, even though I've never done that haha.

I just love the art from it... CLAMP, the artists behind it, are really great.

I was really tempted to buy some art books by CLAMP when I saw them at Japan town >< Alas, I should be saving my money (looks at the hole that still spends money on dresses)

I have toooooo many dresses, but I keep wanting more styles. I should sell ones I rarely wear and opt for more styles..

I went to journal with a friend today and you know, she reminded me I have a lot to be grateful for about this year too..

I don't think I fully announced it, but rabbit reverie, the brand started this year <3333

Here's a picture of my first order!

I am proud of how the packaging came out!

Lune designed the assets for me ^___^

I'm unsure which direction to take with the brand, how much lolita it should be.. I feel anxiety because that is where my heart is, but I'm not sure if I am capable of that and if the community would be receptive to it.

For now the designs are more casual or cottage-core (?) leaning.

The beginning of the year was really hard for me emotionally. I feel guilty, but my emotions have stabilized and calmed down a lot that I am able to be more productive and I feel a lot more happy (I gained a lot of weight in the process though cry). The problem is a lot of it depends on my new date (we're not bf/gf atm). I cannot depend on a person to make me happy..

But, but, but, hear me out... he really is sweet and makes me feel like I'm not a horrible person and am actually deserving of love.

He doesn't breadcrumb me and makes me feel so special ._.

I wish I had a normal childhood, family, or friends that made me feel that, but alas..

Since it's just the beginning stages of our relationship, I really don't know how it will end up.. I'll have to remain strong whatever the outcome.

He's the first man that has made me feel like I'm not needy or too much. It means so much to me.. I was often scared to be myself and often shrunk my needs.

Funnily enough, I rejected him after one date because he was too polite and quiet for me.

But he still talked to me and remained consistent. Which is really what I need. Someone that will be there for me despite my ups and downs. It meant a lot to me when I posted something distressing here, but he checked up on me. I feel like someone actually read this lololol.

He's a really positive person, but also patient and really nice.. I could learn a lot.

I sewed a lot this year, I don't know if I should give credit to my date or not on that :sweat: Looking back, I'm still not happy with the progress, I hardly did anything this year when it comes to that kind of stuff and I hate myself for it really. Reminder, to try to be okay with myself..

I hope 2026 will be a better year for me overall ^_^

I purchased a home this year too and my dog kitkat just turned 1! I wanted a dog so I could be less anxious, but you know how pets resemble their owners lolol..

˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞. Girl's Generation - Girl's Generation ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞.

One of Girl's Generation's first songs ^^ I really like their songs from early in their career.